ESC

Curitiba/Brasil/2015

The worst part of this disease is 'I don't know me'.

I don't know if it's a symptom or if it's a chemical reaction of the espran.

This week I had lunch at work with 2 colleagues. I took a coffee and one of them said: "Don't take coffee after lunch, it's not good for health".
OK, I said. It's not a problem, I am still young.
The other woman got really crazy. She said that I am gonna die soon and other things.. So terrible.
I got really sad.
C'était terrible!Je suis montée au laboratoire et je me suis chachée sur mon brureaux.
My chest tightened, my hands shaking, my feet cold and sweaty.
Je faisais une crise d'angoisse au travail.

Je suis sortie. I talked with some friends. I sent a message to the woman. She said that I had offended her because she is old. OK. That's ok. But I think 'No one has the right to say that'.
I don't know how I am going to work monday. I don't know how to act with them.
But
J'en ai besoin. J'y vais. 
Sometimes things like that.. easy for everybody.. can be a really nightmare for us.
Mais j'y vais.
Todo dia.
Um passo de cada vez. 

Start Again

I'm not a native english speaker, neither french. Eu falo português e estou aprendendo espanhol.
I lived in France. Je veux faire mon doctorat au Canada en chimie. I work at a laboratory of water analysis. J'aime la vie.

But.

Eu sofro de crises de ansiedade generalizada. I have such a disorder and I'm trying to dealing with it.
It's been almost 10 years. I started with a hair pulling disorder and I never went back to normal.

Nantes

La réalité des rêves

Quand on est petit on a beaucoup de rêves . Ce sont les rêves qui nous donne l'envie de grandir

On a l'espoir de grandir et finalement retrouver nos rêves

 Mais où sont-ils? A la fin on oublie, et parfois on ne voit rien devant nous.